Nearly time for my monthly appointment with Ceri my Consultant. It has started to play on my mind again - this damn cancer shadow, I can't get out from underneath it.
Last night I couldn't get to sleep - that's not strictly true, I fell asleep in front of the TV, quite early actually, it was about 9:00pm. My wife woke me up an hour later and said we should go to bed as we were both obviously tired.
I went to bed and that was it, wide awake and my mind started churning over events... blah blah blah, I'm bored of it too - don't worry. I eventually did go to sleep and I woke up exactly where I left off, which was annoying, so I decided that I would face the day with positivity... I've done that and I feel much better.
I know that last time i saw Ceri there was nothing, I expect this time will be the same - I must maintain that feeling, I must focus on the fact that I had the cancer removed, that it isn't there anymore - I can't say that I am cancer free, because I doubt I ever will be, what I can say though is that I don't have cancer... I'll leave it at that!